Conflict

I'm so full of conflict right now. I hate myself, I hate this situation.

I hate you for putting me here, for not telling me sooner. For, by trying to make it seem like not a big deal, turned it into a big deal.

I hate myself for over reacting. For not keeping my emotions in check. For over thinking. For feeling like this. For making a small thing into such a big deal.  

But I love you. 

You tell me to stop worrying. 

You should know better.

I'm sorry. 

It's strange how a song I've hated for long finally makes sense.