Thoughts on True Love

Someone once said (on a cheesy psychic hotline website) that true love is disruptive and chaotic. At first I was offended. How could anyone think of true love in such a way? Surely this person was so jaded that he couldn’t see the wonder that Disney and all the other famous love stories have presented. 

Now I understand.

True love takes your emotions and stretches them as far as they can go. It does not allow for mediocre feelings (at least with me). It only allows for one to be either blissfully happy or heartbroken. Sometimes at the same time. Sometimes, one or the other so intense that it consumes us. It can make these emotions go from one to the other in record time.

It does not let go. 

It holds your head under water past the point where you think you’re going to drown. It makes you suffer for all your worth.

And in that suffering, if you survive, you are reborn. 

My view of love has changed immensely since I’ve fallen into it. At this point in time, it is something I only recommend to fools and people who know how to guard their hearts. To people who are strong and wish to become stronger.

Love is like the desert. It loves to test you to your limits. You lose your way, you take one wrong step, and you are finished. 

Father's Day

Father's day is a strange day for me... well, today was a strange day for me.

I woke up late and prepared myself for the day. After my shower and such, I found that I my travel back pack was missing.

I scoured the house for it, but no dice. It was no where to be found. By now, I'm getting angry. You see, this back pack has been with me since I was little and has gone practically everywhere I have. It's been on every plane trip that I can remember. It's been to every country that I have ever been to.

This backpack and I were like two peas in a pod. How could it run off and leave me alone?!

So I set out after I was positive I would never see backpack again. I went to Best Buy and bought a better back pack. One that has pockets who have pockets. One that has compartments for, not just my laptop, but nook as well.

And it's burgundy. It is a sexy backpack and we will go places together.

After I bought backpack I went and watched Thor with my dad and step-family. That was really really nice. Honestly, I needed it.

Then I went home and had a yummy dessert with George that I made him for Father's day.

These moments are wonderful, but they're not staving off the depression and loneliness that seems to be overtaking me.

I have three days left with those that I love.

Then after that roughly 2.5 weeks before Neal leaves for 10 months.

Guys, I didn't sign up for this when I signed up for it!


Well I'm going to go and try and find some solace for the rest of the day. Maybe I'll play with my new backpack.

Love and Peace
Elle