Another slightly depressing post, and then I'm done... probably

Last night I had a dream that Midnight had woken up and that everything was alright. So waking up this morning was really pleasant.

However, like all dreams do, it faded away like the shadows of my room and I found myself going through my morning routine in a daze. It wasn't like a normal morning daze, I felt too heavy for that.

I realized I had to learn to function properly today and for the rest of this week, so I did the one thing I knew that would stop me from crying: I put on make up. Because I won't have time to fix it if I get emotional, this has been a smart idea.

Today, after my classes, I have work, which is fine because I'm riding the bus all over the place.

Tomorrow, I have work on beltline and if the weather doesn't clear up, I need to contact my boss. I'm really scared of driving out in the mess that is the roads and I don't want to risk anything by making my way out there. I'd hate to end up in a ditch due to snow, or worse and not make it to my schools.

I don't know when I developed this fear of driving in extreme weather. However, it's there. I'm just scared to talk to my boss about it. If things don't clear up by the time I get home tonight, I think I'll be making a very apologetic phone call.

Hopefully today goes by well. I'm not sure if I want it to go by fast, but I think well is a good way for it to go.

Love and Peace
Elie

Morning Time

I'm feeling rather hopeful, as I usually do at the beginning of a new day. Sometimes I feel like I take the journey of Ra. I get up in the morning, shine bright, and then as I cross the horizon into the night, I have to fight a bunch of demons to emerge victorious again.

And somehow, comparing myself to an Egyptian god makes me feel a little bit better.

Today should be pretty low key. Started off my morning right by sleeping in, which was well deserved after my almost full day of working yesterday and sort of rocky night. I realized Neal was on, so I got to talk to him.

Now all that's left is breakfast, homework with Allison, and then work again at four... Sometimes, I wonder why I ever where anything else besides my work uniform. I'm going to have to wear yoga pants until I can find a suitable pair of black pants. Apparently, after a semester in black jeans, I'm not allowed to wear them anymore.

I think, though, the reason that I was told off about this was because the student manager who told me was new. It has been the second time I was told something nit-picky was out of place and it was, both times, by new student managers. I think this is because they want to show that they know what they're doing in a completely new job type and trying to establish their dominance over the gray-shirted commoners. They'll probably calm down in a few weeks when they get into the swing of things.

Even so, I probably should find a pair of black slacks from some brand like Dickies or something. Nothing too expensive because I don't think those black aprons they make us wear, are entirely whipped cream proof.

I guess in all reality, I shouldn't have been working last night. I was way too tired and though it ended in many hilarious instances (ie, knocking a blender slightly off its rotating blades to make the whole back room sound like it was in a saw facility and having the social worker come back to turn off the blender as me and the student manager stared at it to see what it was doing), when I got home I was exhausted to the point of being done with life.

Oh well. I need the money. I know I'll continue to work like this without rest until I'm tucked safely in Neal's arms in Japan. Then I'll sleep all I want.

In other news, I'm probably one of the world's most boring people. It really is true that when you get in college and you choose good grades and sleep over social life, you really don't have a social life. I mean, I work, I study, and when I'm not doing either, I don't want to do anything but read a good book or watch Adventure Time which has easily become my most favorite show. I'm really bummed that I have to miss the new episodes coming out on Mondays due to class. Actually, I also have to miss the new episodes of glee coming out on Thursdays due to class too.

Maybe when I get home, I'll just find them on the tv thing and marathon all of them.

Alright lovelies! I'm off to start my day!

Love and Peace
Elle

Heels

I like to wear heels. They make my butt and legs look really good, and I feel really good in them.

However, I draw a lot of attention to myself as I walk across the cement on campus or down the hallways in the school buildings.

At least I look good so I'm not embarrassing myself when eyes are on me. Though I think I look a bit mean.

On another unrelated note. I really think Neal and I can do this. I think we can do this for the long run, even past Japan and whatever life can throw at us.

I have a lot to do this weekend though including notes and homework for Psych, Ed 315 and 337, and also Science. I might as well throw french in there as well. Good thing there's a library at home.

I'm off to get ready for my final class of the week!

Love and Peace
Elle